I want to share how the Good News of the Injil became meaningful to me. I think this will allow you to better understand the articles in this website.
(The basic information… I live in Canada. I am married and we have a son. I studied at University of Toronto, University of New Brunswick and Acadia University. I have university degrees in Engineering and my professional engineering experience was largely in computer software and mathematical modeling)
Restlessness in a Privileged Youth
I grew up in an upper middle-class professional family. Originally from Sweden, we immigrated to Canada when I was young, and then I grew up while living abroad in several countries – Algeria, Germany and Cameroon, and finally returning to Canada for university. Like everyone else I wanted (and still want) to experience a full life – one with contentment, a sense of peace, and of meaning and purpose – along with connectedness to other people, especially my family and friends.
Living in these diverse societies – of various religions as well as very secular ones – and because I was an avid reader, I was exposed to different views about what is ultimately ‘true’ and what it took to get a full life. What I observed was that though I (and most in the West) had unprecedented wealth, technology and freedom of choice to meet these goals, the paradox was that they seemed so elusive. I noticed that family relationships were more disposable and temporary than that of earlier generations. I heard that if we can get just ‘a little bit more’ then we would arrive. But how much more? And more of what? Money? Scientific knowledge? Technology? Pleasure? Status?
As a young person these questions gave rise to a vague restlessness. Since my father was an expatriate consulting engineer in Algeria, I hung out with other wealthy, privileged and western-educated young people. But life there seemed quite simple with few outlets to amuse us. So my friends and I longed for the days we could return to our home countries and enjoy TV, good food, opportunities, with the freedoms and ease of western living – and then we would be ‘satisfied’. Yet when I would visit Canada or Europe, after a short while the restlessness would return. And worse, I also noticed it in the people who lived there all the time. Whatever they had (and they had a lot by any standard) there was always need for more.
I thought I would find ‘it’ when I had a popular girlfriend. And for a while this seemed to fill something within me, but after a few months restlessness would return. I thought when I got out of school then I would ‘get it’… then it was when I could get a driver’s license and drive a car – then my search would be over. Now that I am older I hear people speaking of retirement as the ticket to satisfaction. Is that it? Do we spend our whole lives chasing one thing after the other, thinking the next thing around the corner will give it to us, and then … our lives are over! It seems so futile!
During this time I came to believe in Allah (God) in spite of the West being mostly secular and even atheistic. It seemed too unbelievable that this whole world and all that is in it arose from chance. But in spite of this religious belief, I kept experiencing inner turmoil as I tried to satisfy my restlessness which I had described above by doing, saying or thinking things that ended up filling me with shame. It was like I had a secret life that others did not know about. But this life was full of envy (I wanted what others had), dishonesty (I would shade the truth at times), quarreling (I would easily get into arguments with those in my family), sexual immorality (often what I was watching on TV – and this before there was internet – or reading or contemplating in my mind) and selfishness. I knew that though many others did not see this part of my life Allah did. It made me uneasy. In fact, in many ways it would have been more convenient for me not to believe in His existence because I could then ignore that guilty sense of shame before Him. In the words of Dawood in the Zabur I was asking the question “How can a young man keep his way pure?”(Psalm 119:9) The more I tried religious observances like prayers, self-denials, or going to religious meetings it did not really remove this struggle.
The Wisdom of Suleiman
During this time, because of this restlessness that I saw in me and around me, the writings of Suleiman made a deep impact on me. Suleiman, son of Dawood, was a king of ancient Israel famous for his wisdom, and he wrote several books that are part of the Zabur where he described this same restlessness that I was experiencing. He wrote:
“I thought in my heart, ‘Come now, I will test you with pleasure to find out what is good’. …my mind still guiding me with wisdom. I wanted to see what was worthwhile for men to do under heaven during the few days of their lives. I undertook great projects: I built houses for myself … I made gardens and parks and planted all kinds of fruit trees in them. I made reservoirs to water groves of flourishing trees. I bought male and female slaves and had other slaves who were born in my house. I also owned more herds and flocks than anyone … before me. I amassed silver and gold for myself, and the treasure of kings and provinces. I acquired men and women singers, and a harem as well—the delights of the heart of man. I became greater by far than anyone … before me. In all this my wisdom stayed with me…. I denied myself nothing my eyes desired; I refused my heart no pleasure. My heart took delight in all my work, and this was the reward for all my labor.” (Ecclesiastes 2:1-10)
Riches, fame, knowledge, projects, wives, pleasure, kingdom, status … Suleiman had it all – and more than anyone else of his day or ours. You would think he, of all people would have been satisfied. But he concluded:
“…when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun… So my heart began to despair over all my toilsome labor under the sun. … This too is meaningless and a great misfortune. What does a man get for all the toil and anxious striving with which he labors under the sun? … This too is meaningless.” (Ecclesiastes 2:11-23)
Death, Religion & Injustice – the Constants of Life ‘Under the Sun’
Along with all these issues I was bothered by another aspect of life. It troubled Suleiman as well.
Man’s fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless. All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return. Who knows if the spirit of man rises upward and if the spirit of the animal goes down into the earth?” (Ecclesiastes 3:19-21)
All share a common destiny—the righteous and the wicked, the good and the bad, the clean and the unclean, those who offer sacrifices and those who do not. As it is with the good man, so with the sinner; as it is with those who take oaths, so with those who are afraid to take them. This is the evil in everything that happens under the sun: The same destiny overtakes all. … they join the dead. Anyone who is among the living has hope—even a live dog is better off than a dead lion! For the living know that they will die, but the dead know nothing; they have no further reward, and even the memory of them is forgotten. (Ecclesiastes 9:2-5)
I had been raised in a religious family and had lived in Algeria, itself a religious country. Could religion be the answer? But I found that religion was often superficial – only dealing with outward ceremony – but not touching our heart. How many religious observances like prayer and going to church (or the mosque) must one do to earn enough ‘merit’ with God? Trying to live a religiously moral life was very tiring, who had the strength to constantly avoid sin? How much was I supposed to avoid? What did God really expect of me? Religious obligations could be burdensome.
And really, if God is in charge why is He doing such a bad job? I asked myself. It does not take much looking around to see the injustice, corruption and oppression happening in the world. And this is not just a recent turn of events since Suleiman also noticed it 3000 years ago. He said:
And I saw something else under the sun: In the place of judgment—wickedness was there, in the place of justice—wickedness was there… Again I looked and saw all the oppression that was taking place under the sun: I saw the tears of the oppressed—and they have no comforter; power was on the side of their oppressors—and they have no comforter. And I declared that the dead, who had already died,are happier than the living, who are still alive.But better than both is he who has not yet been, who has not seen the evil that is done under the sun. (Ecclesiastes 3:16; 4:1-3)
For Suleiman, as is also clear to us; life ‘under the sun’ is marked by oppression, injustice and evil. Why is this so? Is there any solution? And then life simply ends in death. Death is utterly final and reigns absolute over our lives. As Suleiman wrote, it is the fate of all people, good or bad, religious or not. Closely linked with death was the question of eternity. Would I go to Paradise or (more alarmingly) would I go to a place of eternal judgment – Hell?
Searching in Timeless Literature
These issues of achieving a lasting satisfaction in life, the burden of religious observances, the oppression and injustice that have plagued all human history, as well as the finality of death and the apprehension of what would happen afterwards, bubbled within me. In my senior high school year we were given an assignment to simply collect one hundred pieces of literature (poems, songs, short stories etc.) that we liked. It was one of the most rewarding exercises I did in school. Most of my collection dealt with one of these issues. It allowed me to ‘meet’ and listen to many others who also wrestled with these same problems. And meet them I did – from all sorts of eras, educational backgrounds, lifestyle philosophies and genres.
I also included some of the sayings of Isa (Jesus) in the Injil. So along with secular literature were teachings from Isa like:
“… I have come that they may have life and have it to the full” (John 10:10)
It dawned on me that maybe, just maybe, here was an answer to these issues that Suleiman, these authors, and I were asking. After all, injil (which until then been a more-or-less meaningless religious word) literally meant ‘good news’. Was the Injil really Good News? Was it reliable or was it corrupted? These questions grew within me.
An Unforgettable Encounter
Later that year some friends and I were on a skiing trip in Switzerland. After a great day of skiing, and having that youthful energy, we would go out clubbing in the evenings. At these bars we would dance, meet girls, and have fun until very late into the night.
The ski resorts in Switzerland are high up in the mountains. I vividly remember stepping out from one of the dance halls very late in the night to go to my room. But I stopped and gazed up at the stars. Because it was so very dark (I was up in a mountain where there was little human-made ‘light pollution’) I was able to see the grandeur and majesty of all the stars. It actually took my breath away and all I could do was stand there and gaze at them in reverent awe. A verse from the Zabur came into my mind that said, “The heavens declare the Glory of God…” (Psalm 19:1).
In gazing at the majesty of the starry universe in the very dark night it was like I could in a very small way see the majesty of Allah. And in the quietness of that moment I knew that I had a choice. I could submit to Him or I could continue in the way I was going, having some form of godliness but denying its power on all my life. So I fell on my knees and bowed my head to the ground in the stillness of that black night and prayed to the effect, “You are Lord. I submit to you. There is so much I do not understand. Please lead me in your Straight Path”. I stayed with my head bowed to the ground in submission admitting that I had sins in my life and asking for guidance. No other human was with me in these minutes. It was only me and Allah with the star-filled background around 2 AM outside a ski resort in Switzerland. It was an encounter I will never forget and even in trying to recount it words fall short.
That was an important step in my journey. I submitted to His choice when I was at that point where I wanted some answers. And answers started to come to me as I researched and submitted to what I learned. Much of what is on this website is what I have learned since that night. There is a very real sense that when one embarks on this kind of journey one never totally arrives, but I have learned and experienced that the Injil does give answers to these issues that I asked in my life. Its main intent actually is to address them – a full life, death, eternity, freedom, and practical concerns like love in our family relationships, shame, guilt, fear and forgiveness. The Injil’s claim is that it is a foundation that we can build our lives upon. It is possible that one may not like the answers provided by the Injil, or fully understand them, but since this message came from Allah in the person of Isa al Masih it would be foolish to stay uninformed of it.
If you do take time to consider the Injil, you may find the same.
you man, are an inspiration…
Thanks brother Ragnar for your effort to be at the side of truth.Injil is the holy book believed to have been sent by God as noted in Quran. Where is that book ? Gospels are admittedly written by persons who are not even hawarian. These are the story of Jesus and some sayings of him as narrated by the Gospel writer.Are these part of original Injil as Allah said?
Let Allah subhanutala give you Hedayet and accept you as Muslim. Ameen.
God bless you
OF COURSE I SUSPECT U THAT U USE THIS CUNNING WAY TO BRING MUSLIMS INTO THE CHRISTIAN FOLD, THE GENUINE ONE, GRANTED. NOW IS THERE A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THIS AND THE MUSLIM FOLD? IF I MAY SPEAK SO.
AT LEAST YOU UNDERSTAND THAT ISA SAYDUNA MARIAM CALLED ALLAH ALLAH, AS RECORDED IN THE INJIL, USUALLY IN WESTERN PHONETIC RENDERED ‘ELY’.
AND YOU PROBABLY ALSO UNDERSTAND THAT ABU IS A HONORIFIC TERM, AND DOES NOT BY ITSELF IMPLY GENETIC FATHERHOOD. SO THE ISSUE OF SON OF GOD IS SETTLED FOR U, TOO, I GUESS.NOW WHAT REFRAINS YOU TO EMBRACE ISLAM BY THE QUR’AN AL KARIM?
Thank you for your comment. It is much appreciated. The purpose of this site is not to convert to different religions but to understand the Taurat, Zabur & Injil – books that Muslims and Christians both agree come from the prophets. And you are exactly correct re. Son of God. It is not an issue of ‘genetic fatherhood’ Please see my article here which explains that further
God Bless You. This site is unique in the sense that it teaches unabridged Gospel with unfailing belief in Muslims and The People of The Book. Jesus, We Love You
Addition to your answer to Sabilah. “These all books are sent down by ALLAH and we should all read and understand them”.May Allah gives us the Sight to diffrenciate between the authentic words or context and void the one’s which are man made.
Once again I thank the author of his amazing effort to improve the knowledge of history as we know it.
Well said, God bless you. It’s all one message and one religion. If they opened and read the Quran to understand they would know that.
What appears to me it’s a Christian faith website with Quranic wordings used for Prophets. The reason why Islam came is because the original God’s wording was changed or altered. Even those who finalise the new testament includes four Gospels. Definitely God can send four Gospels. At Max, sayings of Jesus can include some portion of original God’s wording but stories narrated by Apostles can not be God’s Word.
I meant to those who were finalising new testament were not sure which Gospel is correct so they just included four Gospels. God can not four books four Gospels. Even we remember all books by their writers. We say Gospel of Mathew or Luke we never say Gospel of God
Thank you for your comment and thoughts. I understand the point you are making and it has merit. But please see my article here on why there are four gospels and my article here on the gospel according to men or God?
Yes looked and replied on them. Ragnar I would advise you something. Never say any thing based on judgements or bias. You can use bible or Quran to justify your point that may not be correct. Bias or judgements make us blind. There are verses in Quran that says that bible is corrupted. For example “And among them are unlettered ones who do not know the Scripture except in wishful thinking, but they are only assuming” (2:78). So woe to those who write the “scripture” with their own hands, then say, “This is from Allah ,” in order to exchange it for a small price. Woe to them for what their hands have written and woe to them for what they earn (2:79). One more example “And indeed, there is among them a party who alter the Scripture with their tongues so you may think it is from the Scripture, but it is not from the Scripture. And they say, “This is from Allah ,” but it is not from Allah . And they speak untruth about Allah while they know” (3:78). There are many verses like this. The existence of many gospels indicate that true Gospel (good news) is not saved.
Abigail spoke to David…1 Samuel 25:29 (DBY) And if a man is risen up to pursue thee and to seek thy life,………. the SOUL OF MY LORD ………… soul of my lord [.DAVID]..
shall be bound…… in the bundle of the living……… with YAHWEH [ thy God; and the souls of thine enemies, …………….them shall he sling out from the hollow of the sling…………
.Seed of DAVID>>PLANTED IN A WOMB…
Many peoples shall go and say, “Come, let’s go up to the mountain of Yahweh, to the house of the God of Jacob; and he will teach us of his ways, and we will walk in his paths.” For out of Zion the law shall go forth, and the word of Yahweh from Jerusalem.
ASK THE PROPHETS AND YAHVEH
WHO IS THE ANOINTED KING? OF YAHVEH?….WHO IS THE KING OF THE CITY OF DAVID?
WHO IS THE HEAD OF THE NATIONS?
UNLESS THE RUACH HAKODESH OPEN THE BLINDED EYES AND OPEN THE DEAF EARST!! TO UNDERSTAND …THE WORD BECAME FLESH. .
YOU SHALL BE CONFUSED WITH SPEECH AND STRANGE IMAGES !!! STILL PARTAKE THE FORBIDDEN TREE OF KNOWLEDGE,GOOD AND BAD, BABILON CONFUSION OF THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE.
YAHSHUA MEANS SALVATION…NOW SEEK FOR THE KING,
THE KING SAID…SHMA…LISTEN!!! THE WORDS I SPEAK……IS SPIRIT!!!AND LIFE!!!
FLESH AND BLOOD CANNOT REVEAL TO YOU.
THE COVENANT BETWEEN YAHVEH AND MELECH DAVID!!
EVEN A CHILD WILL UNDERSTAND THESE WORDS …
they will serve the LORD their God and David their king, whom I will raise up for them.!
THE BLINDED EYES NEED A TOUCH FROM THE RUACH HAKODESH TO SEE WHAT WAS HIDDEN BEFORE THEIR OWN EYES. SEARCH FOR THE PEARL.!!!
. Psalms Scroll composed by King David …It is written about me in the SCROLL…I COME!!! TO DO YOUR WIILL!!!
I have found David my servant; with my holy oil have I anointed him
And I the Lord will be their God and my servant David their ruler; I the Lord have said it.
“‘My servant David will be king over them, and they will all have one shepherd. They will follow my laws and be careful to keep my decrees… and yet you have not been as my servant David, who kept my commandments, … My mercy will I keep for him for ever more, and my covenant shall stand fast with him.
And indeed, among the People of the Scripture are those who believe in Allah and what was revealed to you and what was revealed to them, [being] humbly submissive to Allah. They do not exchange the verses of Allah for a small price. Those will have their reward with their Lord. Indeed, Allah is swift in account. [Sahih International] 3:199
Salam to you
I’m so happy I found your website, and even happier you are sharring your journey and knwoledge, Thank you for that. Everyone has their own journey. “What you seek is seeking your” Rumi
I have also been on a similar journey 🙂
I hope I get to meet you in person one day to learn more. God bless you.
Ps: Jag är uppvuxen i Sverige.
Hasan Nabi khan you have expressed well that Ragnar is beautifully correlating Islam and Christianity.thats what we need to do..find similarities NOT differences. Ragnar you have indeed created a wonderful website and I’m happy I came across it when I was seeking where in the Quran we r told that the bible has been tampered with. Interestingly MM provided those verses I was seeking!!! Wish Ragnar the best for sharing his findings and quest for knowledge AND wisdom to be gained from this knowledge coz its often said” many have a lot of knowledge but how many gain the wisdom from that knowledge” may Allah help us all to become wise not just knowledgable coz wisdom will help us help the world to heal ..inshaallah!!